Hello, Cy, OMF II - Part 2

First topic message reminder :

Portals abound........

Everything is a portal for everything else, and we are that for ourselves.  Everything is a microcosm of everything else.  

The quantum is physics' own portal.  

So, especially, is every work of art..... even every artifact, every bit of nature.  

But...... but what.......?

Well, we do need to move the world, we do need to turn ourselves on a dime.  There does need to be a MoAPS from materialism to immaterialism.  

And this MoAPS will require all of us to participate..... personally.  

There needs be a personal fulcrum..... it's not rocket science.  

And, guess what, sports fans, it so happens........ well, no, nothing has happened, not yet.  But I've been vouchsafed a glimpse of a possibility...... how it might all work out for the better, if not the best.  Yes, I'd be a candidate for the theoretician.  Is that so bad?  I've already said most everything I have to say.  The major points have been covered.  A bird in hand is worth a peacock in the bush.  

Why don't we just open the floodgates, and have a land rush?  Do we have to play peekaboo?  Well, if there is any rushing, it's likely to be in the reverse direction.  We first need to activate and tune our imaginations to the historical reality.  There will also be plenty of room for conceptualization.  


2:30----------

Of course, there will always be spontaneous portals, but, especially at first, there will be a plethora of franchise operations.  Many organizations would have their proprietary access. For access to the wishing well, there will be groups like the make-a-wish foundation.  Longer term, it would become more like renting sunlight, however.  At that point, the return trip would be more limited.



(cont.....)

Exceeded and abused. It comes to a screeching halt. NOW.

Thank you, Cy, for keeping us posted.  

You may not have understood the aborted FBI gambit on Monday.  The upshot is that it was part of a long term effort to desensitize me.  Perhaps, you and I should discuss this item.  I feel a bit restrained about discussing it in public.  It bears some semblance to the 2001 episode.  

If this is the BPW, the there is a personal responsibility for both the good and bad.  I understood this in its abstract, but not quite so personally, until two weeks ago.  I still struggle with it.  

On top of this struggle, I definitely had a struggle with yesterday's six-way GtM.  I felt myself twisting in the wind.  From the Princess, I had a chance to experience tough love, as she declared the conversation boring, near the beginning.  I did not have my ducks in a row, and she did not hesitate to call me on it, bless her heart.  

The message from the castle is that the years of hand holding are coming to a close, as well they might, in these latter days.  It's a brave new world, out there.  

Kevin and Aliyah are not allowed to go where I need to go, bless their hearts.  


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I've spoken with Doug and hope to speak with Chris about this brave new world.  I've had castle cover for 26 years...... nay, I've had castle hand holding.  I trust that the cover won't go away, but the hand holding may be a thing of the past.  How do I know this.......?

It's about the FBI........


2:10----------

I had another conversation with Chris.  If the FBI won't take confessions, I know another institution that might.  Time will tell.....

Two active members of the church will be visiting him in the next few weeks.  I'm in the process of inviting myself over.  Understand that neither of us, or even Doug, is a member of the church, but, based on past experience, I'm not at all surprised that they might be stepping up to this plate.  They might well be aware of the situation with Benedict.  


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Eric reminds of a song.........

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me
I am shielded in my armor
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb
I touch no one and no one touches me
I am a rock
I am an island

And a rock feels no pain
And an island never cries

One day, Eric will learn to cry, again. Maybe, then, he'll come down off his mountain...... into this vale of tears.



(cont..........)

When you are ready or have stripped yourself to bare Dan, we can talk.

The search for ultimate meaning is not about meditation and doing nothing and staying right where you were all along. It’s about going somewhere, exploring everything and going through profound and painful self-exploration, where you strip away what’s not real layer by layer, like eating yourself alive.

I’m here to destroy this world, as Arjuna.

I started with myself.

The bomb has been set off already.

To think I lost myself Dan, lost my way.

How would you know coward

I’m here on the other side waiting for you all.

From the Gita.

“I am come as Time, the ultimate waster of people, ready for the hour that ripens to their doom. The warriors, arrayed in hostile armies facing each other, shall not live, whether you strike or stay your hand.”

If you understand, Enjoy, otherwise, welcome to your Enlightenment.

Turn that ship around and head INTO that black hole.

There is no escape.

The only way is....THROUGH!

—�

The moral, there is none.

Shiva says, pick up your sword and fight, it doesn’t matter anyway.

In other words:

Live.
Do amazingly cool shit.
Have fun!
Explore.
Enjoy.
Embrace the illusion.
Life is a blank canvas. Paint whatever you want.
Live the life of your dreams.

Saddle up the universe and get out there and enjoy it in all its multi-resplendent glory.

That is the paradox of meaninglessness. It can mean whatever the hell you want it to mean.

Meaning is quantum.

Meaning is contextual.

I have told you the Truth, but you don’t want it.

The system keeps 99.99999999% of us asleep so we can do this forever.

None of what Dan says is real, it is only meaningful in the intersections of being in the illusion, this is what he has struggled to say for 40 years as the BPW. We roll up to a great big whole.

Have fun with the meaningless of life.

What will you do with yours?

People on a mission HATE people like me. Dan told me to STFU several times this week, that’s a quote.

But us Outsiders are fine here alone. We only were trying to help.

I see Dan has the heat on, he is percolating.

His head will pop and I may be there to see it...or not.

He may just come to his senses again and be reasonable.

Perhaps he has goat balls like me and will go into the black hole.

I hope you all fight to change the world into a better one, or enjoy the flowers, it doesn’t matter really

If you think it matters, welcome, you are the Fool in this game.

If you are wise, you may understand Odin’s choice to become the Hanged Man.

You are invited to do the same.

Go with the flow and see where it goes maybe.

I have not been disappointed.

I AM

Dan incessantly talks of the meaning he sees. I do the same. The question is not what we think life is...

The greatest question is what does life mean to you?

If you answer that, you may have a leading role in the drama or be a Gardner, but your life will be yours.

—

Dan, friend, I am not sealed in my room.

I am living the life I choose in the moment out loud and authentically.

You can too.

Let go.

Life means nothing but what you make of it.

Stop scaring people about Disclosure.

I have disclosed all that is needed.

It’s sitting out in the open for anyone to pick up.

Teach them to find their hearts.

I cry tears for us all Dan.

You don’t know me, because you don’t live in your heart.

I am an ally of life and it is my ally, the strongest in this game. Sometime we destroy and sometimes we create, each of us can make ourselves into the greatest.

So let go and do that maybe, or not, I really don’t care.

I share from love and wish you that and pain.

Come up from the valley, at least meet me half way.

Let all be as they like.

I accept you in your profound ignorance

Look at the great patience Love has for you Dan.

I came here for you Dan partly, but I can’t make you drink.

I came, not because I was sent, because I saw I was needed.

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No one can save the world.

Simply, Awareness shows you, it needs no saving.

Except it all as it is, no complaint, no change.

Then...look again.

You will not be like you were then and you will have wisdom only then.

No other way but self immolation.

All who claim they can save you, are liars or fools.

Jesus and Buddha said some things, and others made a big deal.

Accept it all.

It is.

Ok, Eric,

Do you recommend that Pope Francis go into the Black Hole?

And then what......?

You are fucking right I do.

Anyone with the balls can fling themselves in.

He thinks there is a meaning apart from now!

There is not!!!!!

But, kill yourselves looking for it.

There is a better way...

Then what?

Then someone else knows that meaning is only found in the moment. In each other.

I promise you, me and the pope trip on some LSD and the world changes.

Maybe that’s my incredible life.

To trip balls with the pope.

But he knows there is no meaning, but in the love you make maybe even.

So, we know his game.

I’m not Jesus, I have no Ambien for you, I only have a reality sandwich.

No one likes the taste.

They all like to sleep.

They are not bothering me now.

Sleep and enjoy.

What would a world of Aware people be, something unlike anything on Earth so far.

I’d play that game to come down off the mountain.

Only the smart, artistic or generous seem to able to find this.

Those poor deplorables wasting their awareness away on negative and positive things.

I cry about that Dan.

I felt God crying.

We who are aware are her tears.

Okay, smarty pants,

Benedict went into the black hole before you did. That's why he resigned. Should he have a press conference about it?

Nope.

We just have to set the pins up.

The Universe will knock those deplorables down.

They will be smoking piles of ash in the corner.

I keep my smoking ashes close.

We have time.

But sadly, if one doesn’t realize in life, they never will.

So there is some urgency for those alive.

Sadly, they are asleep to that.

I have worked my heart out for 3 years to share what I know.

The Katechon blocks me.

So I had to see my Meaning was my life.

That’s all I have Dan.

An open heart.

Believe me, it is enough.

One open heart is enough.

...... set the pins up........

What the f*ck do you think we've been doing, as*hole?


5:10---------

Very funny, as*hole.


5:20---------

If you see a drowning person, what do you do.......?

Oh, I’m not only an asshole.

That’s on a good day.

You barely know the depth of my darkness.

—

When Benedict resigned, he saw he was mostly darkness in the mirror.

Poor guy.

I told you to let your plans go.

Set the pins up by throwing yourself in the black hole.

Forget the rest of us.

Let go.

Man, you are dumb Dan.

When you know it, you can take the next step.

Maybe, up to each of us in the end.

You want to compare hearts Dan with such simple questions?

My actions are your answer.

As are yours.

But, I always reach to drag them into my boat, 1 by 1.

Least I can do as you are right beside me.

But I can’t keep them in the boat.

So I accept it is better to let them try until their last breath.

Until you go through the whole, only your Death matters, afyer, you realize what I have.

Only now can I be of assistance, but I am a dangerous man as OSHO was.

I can’t help anyone live a mundane life.

I can only help myself.

I can start fires now though.

Let me see.........

You are saying that if only Jesus had taken some LSD, and chilled out, the world would have been a better place.  What a fool to go get himself staked out.

What in the world makes you think he didn’t?

Of course he did.

Like knows like.

I know the handshake dude.

You have to die to grasp it.

...pile of ashes in the corner dude.

You can thrash all you like.

You are a goner

Love that fact!

The rest you can make up.

Don’t think you can’t, those are Katechon lies.

Be the ball Dan, haha.

You are upset.

Relax now.

Shhhhhhhhhhhh.

Was Jesus crucifixion worth a piece of sh*t?

Dan, my friend, I see where you are.

I cannot help your awareness.

Maybe Rick and Morty on Adult Swin can.

The Meaning of Life...ala Rick and Morty

“Knowing the truth, that nothing matters, can actually save you in those moments. Once you get through the terrifying threshold of accepting that, then every place is the center of the universe and every moment is most important moment and everything is the meaning of life.”

I know for a fact, men made Jesus a religion.

Jesus showed us how to become God.

I took him at his word and followed him into my heart.

You can safely ignore the rest.

It’s all bullshit, but have at it friend.

You are in good company.

Let go is my advice.

Apparently, you aren’t ready to accept the Truth yet.

I’ll wait...

—

I am somewhere between UG Krishnamurti and OSHO on this.

I am simply done with all the systems and conditioning.

We all can be, but who can say when ‘ready’ is?

No one knows what’s happening, not the princess, myself, Ron or you Dan.

Let’s get that straight right now.

We are part of an incredibly large intelligence changing all the time.

It does not have morality as we understand it.

It can’t be understood by a mind.

All conditioning will be stripped away if you look for ultimate meaning.

Awareness is a curse in this world.

We are simply tears of the Cosmos.

Please, take it from me.

So while no purpose remains, the mountain I dove into is still there.

This is acceptance.

Humble yourself and most of all, let the sham go.

We are the Mystery moving through creation.

That is enough.

I am an unconditioned man, de-hypnotized.

Now I have a chance at a REAL life as it is, no systems, with the world and Cosmos as it is.

That is enough.

This is acceptance.

You arrogant son of b*tch, Eric...... go to hell.

Hahaha.

The work continues...

Arrogance is the banal mask of cowardice.

Am I a coward Dan?

Could you know?

Not really.

You don’t know my set and setting.

Meaning is quantum.

Meaning is contextual.

If you have found meaning, it is precious and yours.

But any meaning found other than in the moment, is an illusion.

I shall never budge from my stoop Dan.

I’m not arrogant friend, I know.

Shhhhhhhh.

Listen.

Going within is just an exploration of the false self. Just exploring the dream character.

To wake up is to break free of the ego. To have a complete breakdown. Once you have arrived at the destination, the vehicle is discarded. No truth to ego, so no mastery of it really matters. Attention on the ego just reinforces it.

I want nothing. I know what I need comes before I want it. The world needs no saving. Fear of oblivion, not death, is what drives us really. The root of all shame is the deep suspicion I am an imposter.

Well, I’m a sham. Always said so.

It’s alright to cry.

I have abandoned myself.

But that’s my game man.

Play your own.

A recent contribution.........

Your blog posts suggest you may be learning. Seek confession where it is offered, offer it where it is most needed, and do it in a manner that will be well received. Practice before you proceed. Master the arts of shadows and whispers. All roads may lead to Rome, but few find there way Home.

I hope I don't have to go any further than North Carolina.  

Shadows and whispers........?  I'm not real sure that's a game I have any desire to master.  

As for Eric....... go toward the light.  Don't muck around in the shadows.  Some of us still have missions to accomplish.  Mine is the mission to end all missions.  That is the job description of the SoT.  Look it up.  

It's ok for Eric to think he's God.  He only has a garden to screw up.  It's not so good for don/kim to each think that they are God, which they do, also.  

Someone is going to have to read them the riot act.  I'll do it, if no one else will.

We all have that of God within us.  The thousand flowers will bloom, once we know where the Sun is........ where the truth is coming from..... we can all move toward the light.   


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CorCat,

Thanks....... goodie bag and actuator.  I just don't have an overview of how this goodie bag might fit in with personalism.  Maybe it doesn't.  

I have supposed that it might be some sort of RFID device.



(cont........)

Gardens will sew this whole thing up.

You remind me of a poem.

From Walt Whitman “The Origin of All Poems”

“The spotted hawk swoops by and accuses me, he complains of my gab and my loitering. I too am not a bit tamed, I too am untranslatable, I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world.

In the faces of men and women I see God, and in my own face in the glass, I find letters from God dropt in the street, And every one is sign’d by God’s name, And I leave them where they are, for I know that wheresoe’er I go,

Others will punctually come for ever and ever.”

—

Follow up on chance encounters with "strange" people that catch your attention.

Everything is consciousness and so are you.

Go deeply into what attracts your attention.

That's you.

Goody Bag or Actuator?

https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=A4fXhEnL6s0

In The Mahabharata, Krishna and Arjuna are discussing the war that is soon to begin. Arjuna asks if the war will take place on the battlefield or in his heart.

“I don’t see a real difference,” replies Krishna.

Not a bad quote, Sham.  It is at least mildly apropos of our present situation.  

Yesterday, Debbie and I spent the afternoon with R,A&K.  During lunch, a principal topic was my promising not to go to the FBI.  I did, but my fingers must have been crossed.  I won't go without knowledgeable accompaniment.  

There is virtually no room for me to doubt that 9/23 was a setup.  9/23......?  Yes, that was the weekend before 10/1.  I've already blogged about that Saturday.  

The basic premise of the BPWH is that everything is a setup.  It is the PSR....... nothing happens without a reason, and not just any old reason.  Nothing has a mechanical reason...... every thing has a teleological/personal reason.  Yes, the End always justifies the Means.  

Wait a minute......... you mean that there is not a physical reason why an ice sickle falling off of a skyscraper kills a pigeon on the sidewalk?  Can't we allow for random events?  Well, suppose that sidewalk in question was in front of Trump Tower, and Donald Trump had walked by, ten seconds before.  There would be headlines screaming 'conspiracy'.  Just because there were no headlines screaming about poor budgie, that does not prove that God could not have counted the feathers on her back.  It does not mean that Reality is not the sum total of all conspiracies ever imagined.  Can a tree fall in the forest without making a sound?  I leave that as an exercise for the reader.  

But why me, Lord....... why anybody?  

In a personal/teleological world, everything has to be about someone.  Why, then, can't we have a truth squad?  Does there have to be an SoT?  Hey, there already is a truth squad....... it was the tongues of flame that came at Pentecost.  Hmmm.........  I've heard that one before, and it's partly true.  But, evidently, it wasn't quite enough to guide Eric into the Truth.  Yes, the Spirit guided Eric into a personal truth, but it didn't guide him into the interpersonal Truth.  He thinks that there is no such thing.  It's all about individuals like himself.  

Yes, God doesn't play dice...... and Eric doesn't play dominoes.  Hmmm...... we'll see about that.  

Yes, Eric, you're about to see how God plays dominoes. You think it's just child's play.  Well, start thinking again......

When the Truth finally arrives, it's gonna be a special delivery, package deal.  And it's kinda looking like the package is gonna be yours truly.  Hey, it's dirty work, but somebody's got to do it.  

And, look at it this way...... poor Ron had to spend the last 26 years of his life, holding my chicken little hand.  What's the payback?   Me not going to the FBI?   No, this has been a team effort, and, of course, we're all on the same team, and it'll turn out that I'm really just the mascot.  Yes?  No....... prove it.  

Isn't that all she wrote...... does the fat lady have to sing?  

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It is a setup.

All of this.

That is Truth.

—

The ego exalts the teacher
The ego declares things sacred
Things are not sacred
They are True or NOT True
Those who say there is no meaning

Liars
Cowards

For I myself have gone within
I have wrestled myself and yielded
I have known Truth
Tasted it’s alien saltiness
It is simply the way things are
No arguments
It can only be found
In the moment
Why would I argue with life
Why would I lie to you
How could I know what life ultimately means
How could you

Everyone belongs to the cult of false-self
We love worshipping at the altar of ourselves
Awakening de-hypnotizes you
Enlightenment is living in the de-hypnotized state
Your only other option is fear
Enjoy living your life in the Light of Truth

—

Here is the paradox.

If the world were populated by ones like myself.

It would cease moving.

So I see ones like myself are dangerous.

That just can’t happen.

So this feels like a curse being trapped with you children here now.

But I’m not trapped. I fly free.

That’s the best you can have in life.

It takes a year of patient attention to assist someone to wake up.

2 years is how long enlightenment takes on average.

How many realized masters has a teacher pumped out, should we not be able to measure them this way.

The ones who know focus on 1-20 around them.

These are the true Masters.

That should tell you something.

All these gurus and teachers, Eckart, all of them, shams.

They know it.

I know I’m a sham.

Will anyone else wake up to this?

I don’t know or care.

I care enough to help people I’m connected to.

That’s the way this works.

That’s the best I have and all my life is now and for the rest of it.

I can only tend my flowers.

—

“You shall no longer take things at second or third hand,
nor look through the eyes of the dead,
nor feed on the spectres in books.

You shall not look through my eyes either,
nor take things from me.

You shall listen to all sides and filter them from your self.”

— Walt Whitman

—

How many people actually get this far?
How many people are really enlightened?
Many claim it, but how many actually are it?

I have no idea, my guess is very few. Some of those in a position to speculate have estimated that one in ten thousand take to the idea and one in ten thousand of those actually make it, meaning one in a hundred million.

Thinking worldwide, I’d agree that it’s close to that. So maybe there are a few dozen truth-realized beings alive on earth at any time. And how many of those few dozen, like myself, make an effort to assist others? Make themselves known?

Less.

Damned weird situation. There is no manual at this stage. I can do whatever I want. Why do I want to help? I don’t know or care, but I do.

Now...what to do...what I am doing.

The rest of you should be dissolving your self, in my contact, you will if you have the will to do so, I can assist you, otherwise, I have no function in this world. I’m just flying on the wind in the flow of the moment watching you.

If you feel any pull by myself, you are close to it. If you reject me, you are lost.

I can’t help anyone.

Peace.