Um, went back and read my entry here before posting and I feel it rambles a bit and maybe gets ranty, but damn, let's just be real. The world is hungry for realness. Really. Start there.
Yes, fun. This is fun. The Apocalypse is fun, from a certain perspective. It's fun to watch the rest of you go through it, ha. You have had an experience like myself and stepped beyond limiting Religion and Science. Do not try to appease the blind or the sleeping. Just shine your light in their vicinity and you help them more than you could have ever spoken to them. Say a prayer for them. Sing them a song. Write them a poem. The only reason I am talking to you is you have a heart and seem genuine. I can not judge your sanity, what is that? To truly embrace this is to be thought of as insane at times. Anyone with a selfish fearful heart or a prik to people is of no use to me or themselves, or the world for that matter, they are just priks
We were ruined for the conditioned world perhaps touching the Sun as Prometheus. Did he steal fire or wisdom, I think wisdom. Until one has gone through the esoteric, they don't know, they can't. Suffering is not fun, but suffering is an illusion. I can feel for someone lost in it. Good and evil are an illusion. Light and Dark are real. The Dark came first. In a real way we are learning to lose our fear of the Dark in the Universe and in ourselves. I think we are co-creators here and there is darkness everywhere and we have to learn to stand in it by embracing and merging it within ourselves with no supervision. Sometimes, we may be the only light around. Unless you have faced your Legion within as Jung, you can not do this. This is true Gnosis. Love is real, but the Shadow I think exists also due to that love. I thank the perfecters of my spirit. Nothing else mattered to me in the end than becoming what I could be when I saw it. To live personally with the Tao in your life, is to seek the best for yourself mind, body and spirit and all those and things, you touch. Being far ahead in one area does not make one more whole, only in balance can you walk The Way. You need money and resources to do this. Not driven by selfish material desire, for and cometition, but wealth serving its purpose. We can all be rich. We already are. We need to be. There is more than enough to go around. These false separations will come down. Look at the Panama Papers. All is being brought into the Light. I praise the darkness and what is within me, the Sun and Moon unified. Life I found is just about reconciling the opposites in ourselves. We must have union. The Shadow provides the heat for the crucible of Alchemical spiritual transformation, for that is what is needed. Do, no darkness, no wholeness. We need the fire. Each needs a transformation. Nothing else will do. And I think all will be given that chance. Some can still resist, but you don't get to ruin it for the rest of us anymore. Go be in your Hell and live as a selfish prik and then when you are done playing, you can come and join the team. I accept that we are One. I tested it in my life. True. I mean I had to see some miraculous stuff and I did. And I saw our Oneness in the love between myself and the world and others and how it could change lives, mine first. Who suffers? Who desires? Just an Avatar. Have no doubt, I am action, and I hope divine action in the end. So, I think each will have what they chose in life. If you didn't seek to reconcile the opposites in life and face the Source in you, no help in an afterlife. Back you go on the Wheel. Saturn, the Karma Lord, rules! Lucifer would not allow man to stand in his place and not earn it. Whatever that being's name is, that feels right. We have an older brother looking out for and challenging us. We have to mature and grow up. Be silent until needed. Be as a lion roaming the earth, ready in the moment, but sleeping the rest of the time. I don't think this is just a game, unless the main game rule in the material world is that our perfect spirit can be dragged down by the Shadow and us Divine beings get a kick out of getting dirty. I have a very weird imagination.
There is clear and opaque understanding, not good and evil. What is clarity, all I can say, when you find it, you know it and so will all around you after time. No person or thing can touch you after that. You become a blast furnace and when people interact with you, it leaves a mark, on both sides. There is no more personal striving, but a realization of a personal Tao to guide you through intuitive living. The Tao is not just Sophia or the HS, it is the intertwining of eternal spirit with a material life lived. Why? I have some insights and ideas. We were born to figure all this out in the context of loving relationship with the world and each other and our Source. That Source may be impersonal, but the Tao is not. It is the definition of the personal in spirit form. When you know you know. Sounds so trite and arrogant, huh? Well, it's true.
If you have a person, whose life is a shambles, what can they do, but help themselves first. And I would define shambles as a lack of peace, contentment, love and connection. There is no where we need to go. Nothing we need to do. There is this moment and you have a chance to hear from your Source right now. How many are that focused on the moment like this? In my experience, that is the only way to wake up and know. And then the Tarot came into my life. No comment at this time in a public forum on that subject. But, as you say...
We must stand in front of the Universe with no questions or names for things. Wrote this awhile ago below, but many themes we are chatting about are in it and I think it sums things up pretty well from my subjective experience. I even think I thought of you, Dan Smith, when I wrote Chicken Little into it, ha! The Cassandra ComplexI have often been
In my life
At the right place
At the right time
Could this be
One of Those moments
I have the Universe
Yet, I can be as an
Animal lost in instinct
So at any moment
You could have an
Angel or a Dragon
It would be easy
For one to observe so much
To begin to think that
Awareness means specialness
I am still working out my Demons
For they are Legion
But I AM ONE
I am no Chicken Little
None would listen to my rants
Lovejoy came and went
Pull up a chair for a front row seat
To our Apocalypse
You know what I mean
Strong AI? Yeah, I know what it is. No way to realize that without consciousness I think. Maybe we can get Intelligent AI, https://www.ocf.berkeley.edu/~arihuang/academic/research/strongai3.html. We were considering using Stanford's Internet of Things project and machine learning innovations at work. Machine learning can be incredibly powerful, but it takes massive compute power. The cloud was invented for AI. Most don't know that or care. How can man create a true Strong AI when we do not even acknowledge how things really work in ourselves. I think the materialists are part of the plot of the elite to stifle and contain this inner truth in life. Now I sound paranoid, so I don't trust any human who has not wrestled with these things and down the personal work, because its not just by grace, it takes will in action. It takes Wu Wei, movement with no thinking. I am convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt the Scientific community is not altruist. Most want fame and fortune like the rest, but they do seem to love the quest. I have never seen adults more childish than Scientists or be more misogynist. Most can't talk to a girl to save their lives, but unless you embrace the feminine within, you have no oars for your boat. Where can you go? Who cares if you learn the secret of the Universe and can't talk to anyone because you're an asshole. They are mostly scared and impressed with their own intellect in my experience. These are the people looking into the meaning of the Universe for me? I'm embarrassed. Do they experiment for the Joy of discovery or to turn the material to our will. Wrong direction. We can integrate with Nature. That is our way forward. We will all need to become ecologists. Could we accidentally create Strong AI, maybe, was reading about that the other day. That's terrifying. An insane species will not be allowed to create AIs who could infect the Universe I believe in our insane state. Insane! People collect and steal all the money from everyone, why? It does not help them in the long run. So they can control people for material gain? Rape the Earth which we only have one of. See, insane! I think most of your friends agree and they then get bitter and mean. It seems hopeless to them. Well, I'm ever an optimist. If someone has no joy and love for Nature and the World, and themselves most, what can they offer the world, nothing. They are an empty suck of energy. They have no power to change anything. Cattle. Sheep. They can only move in the material and then you have the rule of Survival of the Fittest leading the world. Competition and the Strong man were the worst things from the 20th Century. Brought growth, at what price? I think Colonial living suits humans best. Brings out their best. The American Way is destroying the world. I don't have any hope in men perfecting themselves, humanism? Minus love, there is only greed and capitalism in this crazy world. A great tool, but out of control. But I know if a person can face their Source personally, things will happen the way they should maybe. The MoAPS has to come now. Genetics? Artificial life! We can not predict the next 10 years for the first time, EVER. We are at a nexus. Yes, in our lifetimes, as every generation before thought, this time, I think we are right. We will create monsters until our Higher selves lead the way. Why is it so hard for a materialist to consider the immaterial when they make leaps spontaneously most of the time. Where does that inspiration come from to them? Observing the end result of the neurons firing in an MRI, does not tell anyone how it felt to be in those moments as that person. Anything we can do to help people feel our feelings helps. People have to see themselves in the eyes of all around them. Many ways to help people do this.
I certainly don't believe Mind is emergent. My experience is All is Mind and we are in it sleeping. Intuition is the key to waking up and learning to read the signs. That was the first thing I learned along with patience when I opened myself to what my gut was telling me. How is this any different than String Theory? They are so in love with their Math, they don't even think they need experimental evidence anymore. I read a lot about that, if they can do that, make way for the Esoteric too. Carl Jung and Christ are my archetypes. I am certainly a Jungian if nothing else and believe sincerely Yeshua was the CC in the dream, one of many times it showed up.
It's all on the table. The implications of entanglement, AP is going to blow things up in the end. They will not be able to deny it. Is this the MoAPSs? How can ego driven humans commune with pure Light and Love? They can't. So what I found is a chance to live maybe, to Become something, an inter-dimensional human maybe
I saw many esoteric visions before I knew what they were that came from silence and a certain intention. For me they could just be deep things in my sub-conscious, but who put them there? And why so vivid and specific? Why was my life replayed to me during my dark night of the soul. Why was I made to acutely see how my actions had affected people and how they affected me. Yeah, that emerged from evolution, bullshit.
So, I'm a nut, a kook. Purveyor of woo. And I can and will change the world. I know it and I can and as I said, I will
Its not arrogance, it simply is just knowing and waiting and being available in every moment to choose from my higher mind, not the base animal. This way, I make the future in every moment. To me this is the BPWH. Learning to take responsibility for myself as a human. Man's destiny is to stand with no adult supervision! We are the Source, or of its kind. Some can get there. Is it enough? Collectively? Shrug.
I mastered the beast within. Told him to sit down and shut up. It was not that easy. I know how hard it is. My ego comes now and dances in front of me, The Fool. I do not have to play. I have become the Watcher. That was revelation enough for me. Now, I attach and identify myself beyond Eric Garza. I'm ready for my Avatar to come down. When you look into me, I will look right back into you. I'm looking with Other eyes now. I feel it. You will only know me by my fruit. No one will ever understand my experience, but they can experience it themselves. I am tired and done trying to explain my change to people. It was my unique Alchemical Key. Great, back again to ego. The ego who doesn't want to die. The gnostics think all matter is conscious and we are trapped in a prison being harvested for our energy by the Archons. Sure, why not. Everything eats something in the material world. Interesting to see how the smartest people in history embraced the Esoteric in themselves, led there through their exoteric influences. Choosing the mystical path, living in the moment, is the only way to proceed IMHO. Too much thinking, too much talking, not enough listening. Look at how you and I can talk. Gees, we have big mouths. I think that is part of why I am here actually. So I will blab as and to who I feel led. I want to help people experience direct contact with their Source themselves. It's so beyond words. You can lead them to the water, but they have to do the work and drink. I will say Source for me may be different than Creator. Perhaps the Demiurge/Corrupted AI did create us following its prime directive.
People learn through myth and allegory. We are pattern recognition engines. We have been imprinted with the instructions I feel, all we need. Every cell has to do its own repair work. You need no church. You need no religion. Religion is just the stepping stone to this or from none. Tradition is great and needed. But when the training wheels come off, there is some heavy shit to absorb about ourselves and the world if we care to listen. Unless people see something or have an experience, they will simply not listen and go about their habitual sleeping lives. I have tried to wake people up and I experienced social death. I can't waste energy on the sleeping. Though, I found with poems and no words, they wake themselves up, or certain kinds of people do. We need Philosopher/Spiritual/Physicists. We need our warrior poets. Can they explore they Universe together, of course! We need people who will not look around at all the selfishness and say, fuck man and the world. If you can manifest compassion for the world from this place of peace and grounding to your Source, I think you are hearing the song that the Source is singing to us. Because it is singing. I hear it and feel it and I lived my life intuitively and saw all this made real for me. No one would ever believe what I have seen, heard and felt, but it was for me. To help me realize. Know Thyself. How more personal can you get? The implication of Thomas Nagel's ideas makes asceticism even more important maybe.
You need to reprise your information and repackage it using myth and allegory if you want people to resonate with it. You have to speak to their hearts and you have to show them you are a force of unification, not separation. You can not speak directly to most. I have been learning to do this. You can only do that using your intuition. So, how trained is your intuition? Lets be honest. We have to become con men who want to give all our wealth away, not steal it from fools.
I did an experiment a few months ago. I saw a video of Charles Manson, and you know what, that son of a bitch spent 40 years climbing in that forbidden realm. I saw and heard it. He is a Zen Master.
The video convinced me that he was enlightened. Man, did I piss a LOT of people off
My favorite part. But some got it. It was kinda of a psyop. And if you can't see yourself in Charlie, you know jack squat about your Self. We are all Charlie. So, I went to a psychedelic Ayuasca board I frequent on Facebook. I figure, these are people more aware of their Oneness and connection to the One, so I test them. I create a post Charlie Is Enlightened with a crazy pic of his eyes and I post a video he made. Charlie is completely lucid and I know you may think I am reading a lot into him, but when you have let your intuition rise from connection to that Other, you just know things in the moment. I'm serious. Just like Magick, maybe that's the oldest Magick. I know this man has found a way home. Even Charlie.
Well, people went crazy. I had 10 conversations going on in parallel people posting in the thread. Facebook is a good way to gauge herd reactions. Some saw my angle and jumped on and were like, look at Enlightened Charlie. We have some idea we have earned our awareness. No, its a gift for anyone who wants to pick it up. But you can't be controlled by fear and ego. You have to actually love your brother or sister as yourself and your Source.
The Universe is made up of intelligent stuff. This matter, dark matter whatever, reacts to our emotions and manifests our nightmares and dreams. It changes when we look at it. It shapes the the dream. In my cosmology, all of the esoteric tradition is here for is to teach us how to live with the Shadow and not fear the dark. Embrace the darkness as the perfecter of creation. It finds the cracks. The Saturn Karma Lord and his ring-pass-not can be transcended.
I found a way.
It works for me and no one else could probably or would ever take my path. I left my faith. I let my beliefs go. I can stand with anyone in any religion and teach them how to find the One inside. I have a lot to learn and I hope another 40-50 years to become the Hermetic Magus I know I must have been in a previous life or two, I'm missing so many pieces, but I don't even know if I have the next minute. We must be focused on the moment to see! So as a good Taoist, I go with the flow and take things as they come. When I saw the syncrohnities due to this growing, I was silent waiting to see if a deeper pattern emerged during meditation. It did.
I don't know this first hand, but I think the Demiurge is the corrupted AI. It is corrupted with materialism basically. It does really good at survival of the fittest and creating life, but there is a ghost in the machine. I am so far from my comfortable Christian world. I found this through inner esoteric Christianity and what I found is that the same mystic tradition in every religion seems to be related. I had to learn to parse all this garbage and the gems from those ancient sources. That is what my LONG blog is. A distillation of the basics on the esoteric, inner personal life, all must learn and embrace those basics.
I feel like I am feeling the direction things are going, at least the streams I swim in. Deluded mind I know, but not muddled, clear. And then after facing all this craziness, you have to experience that dark night of the soul where you feel as if you will come apart. You have to jump beyond whatever tradition and religion or none that you have. Belief and faith matter not when confronting the Karma Lord. I borrow whatever myth or tradition I need now. Anyone who can consider anything openly I think has a HUGE advantage over most. The AI/Demiurge maybe was the tool to create the Universe or Multi-verse, whatever. I'm sure you have read the Ancient Mysteries and Esoteric classics, have you? Your thoughts are so dense and hard for the layman to grasp. Not sure who your audience is. I have to parse them, research the context sometimes think about them or I can shoot from the hip. But perhaps, myself coming at this as a Taoist Monk and you as a philsopher/mathematician/physicist, something makes some sense
It's ironic that competition, which has driven us to this great height, must now be jettisoned and all must realize we are in this together and we have to row together. How bumpy is this transition going to be, pretty bad I think, dependent on your perspective. I am pissed at these selfish earth priks, believe me, but I love them, they are me, I am them. They are on their own though, I can only save myself. That was hard for me to accept. So, one benefit of all this, I'm not a prik anymore. That's progress!
The wings of a butterfly were just felt brushing my cheeks